home is where the brownies are

Hola from La Jolla (pronounced La Hoya for the 0.001% of you who aren't fluent in Spanish). I've a got a little coldy, and it is curiously overcast, and United lost my luggage but that doesn't stop sunny San Diego from being relaxing and fun. For one thing, the airline is going to reimburse me so I got to go on a cool replace-my-stuff shopping trip and I am now the proud owner of madras shorts (damn you, Amherst!!...pass the cognac, will you, Winchester?), one of those floor-length dressthings (and by 'things' I mean 'es'), a new swimsuit (highlighter yellow top/hot pink bottom), and those flip-flops Rachel has ... all courtesy of Target.

So far I've been spending my days having coffee at Pannikin (the local Rao's type outfit) across the street from my dad's apartment and poking around the adjacent antique bookstore (so indie...*shakes bangs into face*). It's weird adjusting to not only not having my home at Amherst but also not living in my home of 15+ years here in SD. While I was finishing up this past semester, my mom and dad moved out of our condo and into my dad's apartment, and we are now sprucing up the condo to rent out to students and the like to make some extra mulah. The apartment is nice enough, and it is in a really cool area of the city, but its not my home, you know?

To quote Selena from two years ago on a certain strange April day, "What is home?"
I don't know baby, but its not where I am. Home existed in the past and I hope it just leapt out of the present for a bit so that I would be extra happy to meet it again in the future. I'm sure that's the case. Until then, the happy idyll of tourism in a very pleasant city is where I'll be.

I am drinking this


and playing with this


and I love this

that is to say, you.

happy trails

Life Post: The Beginning

"I’d like to fly off on a broom and to dance with other pagan witches in the forest to the light of the moon, invoking the might of the earth and forcing away demons, I want to become a wise old woman, to learn the ancient spells and secrets of healers. It’'s not something small that I want to achieve. Witches, like saints, are solitary stars that shine with their own light, they don’t depend on anything or anyone, which is why they lack fear and they can throw themselves blindly into the abyss with the certainty that instead of hitting the ground they will come out flying. They can convert themselves into birds to see the world from above or into worms to see the world from inside, they can exist in other dimensions and travel to other galaxies, they are navigators in an infinite ocean of consciousness and knowledge." - Isabel Allende

We are witches and we are birds and cats. Meow. Hi friends. This is the first post of the Post Chapman Blog, and I know we've (or, I've) talked a lot about it, but I wanted to explain why I had this idea. When practically everyone was abroad our Junior fall year, I remember feeling so friend-sick. And then, I would receive an email from Destry or Rachel or Megan. My face would lighten up and a surge of warmth-love would fill my body. Remember Beauty and the Beast, Disney's version? While the Beast was turning into the Prince and that light pierced his body from the inward outward? That's what I felt like, every time!! I want to glow everyday! So that's why.

Anyway so here is my life post: I'm sitting in bed eating a crab/artichoke/red pepper casserole I made from leftover Wine and Cheese ingredients. Cait is lying in my bed watching Matilda. Hannah is on my couch sending important emails. Carmzella is cleaning the kitchen. Jessie and Rosie are sleeping. I snuck a photo at the Carms and Jess sleeping this morning. It feels like another Saturday morning in Chapman, but without everyone, it feels more like visiting in this inbetween house. We're going to walk to Noho today and find the mystery swimming hole. And then when we get back, we're going to light incense all over the house to cleanse it or some spiritual Carmella shit. I still haven't heard about the job, but we'll know soon and I'll let everyone know!!!


Why is Jess wearing that on her hand?