2 things you should know

1. When i was having one of my fits in my head about how Amherst ruined my life i wrote an email to Tony Marx asking to talk to him about my experience at Amherst, and how I feel I fell through the cracks. He agreed to meet with me next Wednesday. I don't know why I did that. I was kind of drunk with emotion at the time. Anyway, so now I feel the need to go through with it. I think it might be a form of therapy, like a way to be heard, and validated, so I can go to graduation and shake his hand and feel like he knows why I am celebrating. Or it could just be a huge awkward, embarrassing mistake. We'll see.

2. I have a meeting with Windhorse tomorrow. That's the therapeutic community thing I mentioned a few months ago, where I live with someone who's a little fucked up, and I get a stipend, and I work with psychologists to help treat them, etc. Remember? Anyway, they may have found me a match! Go fuckin light a church in a candle somewhere for me or something. I neeeeeed this job. It's the only half legit thing I have an opportunity to get my hands on. Gahh. I just flet like a needed good vibrations coming from you girls, and Julian, tomorrow. Love you.