hi darlings,

in rao's w rosie, and it feels so comfortable/natural - she'd better be here every weekend!

school's beginning again and i'm picking up on all the weirdness of not having a complete chapman in amherst ! missing selena something terrible. there was a big dinner party in the zu last night (which i mostly missed because my parents were in town) - could have almost been chapman, but relocated to zu with zu kinks and specialties.

zu is wondrous . i really believe that we have the best group evers (missing monty destry, but they'll be nearby). everyone seems so sweet and chill. but especially sweet. i'm trying to cultivate lots of love, even (or especially) with the people i don't know so well, so that when you all come to visit all you feel and see everywhere is LOVE.

disappointed again by a boy. my summer hook-up called last night to say he just wants to be friends. at least it's clear (not ambiguous). but shot up hopes of having an easy sleazy lover this semester. not sure if i'll be able to find someone else. going to take m. mendoza's advice and look far afield from amherst (ie, hampshire and umass grad students).


the ceot (community engagement orientation trip) was some kind of happy hell, just worked and slept for two weeks, all the way up to 9 pm on friday, my birthday. proceeded to get very drunk and very high and say strange things to many people (but mostly sarah d-z, destry, and barry scott). twas also a full moon, thus perfect finale to my summer....

i think the main thing that came out of it was: i feel an incredible connection to the moon, and i want to live many many lives, starting in on new ones as soon as i graduate (oh! graduation couldn't come quick enough ! or slow enough ! what a difficult thing - saying goodbye to the valley in subtle ways ... already stopped talking to people that i just don't expect to see again..)

yet oddly, i've made a new group of good friends - my ceot trip leaders were phenomenally lovable, the sweethearts - a big group of sophomores. i really like the 12s !

OK, enough odd rambling. problem is, i haven't posted in a while!

OTHER PEOPLE NEED TO POST! WHERE IS HANNAH! ?? MEGAN ?! Ok, love, rach.